the next chapter.

it's taken awhile to get here.  the point where you realize that one chapter of your life has ended just so the next chapter can begin.  as much as i resisted it, as much as i tried to make my reality something different...i realize now that the best is yet to come.

i have learned so much more about myself in the last 2 months than i ever thought i could...

i am far stronger than i gave myself credit for...this is something that i will always carry with me.  i am so lucky to have discovered this about myself during my young years because down the road, when life throws me another curveball i can look back at this time in my life and remember that i got through it...i made it.  i survived.

forgiveness really is what matters most.  learning to forgive is hard.  it forces you to dig deep and face all the things that make you want to curl up in a ball and give up.  it wasn't something that happened over night...it was a progression of time that i am so grateful came sooner than later.  the day i was able to find forgiveness was the day my head and heart thanked me endlessly.  my soul feels light again...my mind is becoming clear and the pieces of my heart are slowly mending back together.  of course, there will be tough days ahead, but knowing that i have found it in me to truly forgive makes those days few and far between.

i am a fighter. a true fighter...even when i didn't know what i was fighting for i continued to fight because it felt right.  unfortunately, life doesn't always give you the things you want.  as much as i wanted to save my marriage i quickly realized that that fight was lost and the person that i should really be fighting for is myself.

throughout my entire life i have always been the one that had so much love to give.  when i love...i love with all of my heart.  as i move forward to this next chapter i will stay strong, continue to forgive, always fight and take the time to love myself.  in the end that's what really matters most.


  1. Oh my goodness Lindsey! I had no idea:-( I've been sooo out of the blog loop.. My heart goes out to you, but at the same time I'm inspired by your resolve, strength, and dignity. You're a beautiful person who makes beautiful things! You deserve a life of happiness to match your lovely spirit and personality!

    Janette, the Jongleur

  2. O my Lindsey, I like Janette, have been out of the blog loop also! I had no idea that this happened to you. I am so sorry. You are such an inspiration. This post was beautifully written and I can feel your determination through this.
    Sending hugs your way,

  3. I am so happy that you are doing better. I love your attitude about it all. You look GORGEOUS! ! And i love the new blog look as well. Keep on fighting sweet girl! Xoxoxo

  4. I am happy that you have found the strength within to find the positives. Keep your head up girl :) ps - I like your new blog design.

  5. Love you, friend! I am so happy for you...that you are moving on and looking out for you. It's rough...been there...but it gets SO much better. I don't think I could be happier, finding out some things myself a few years ago...and picking up and moving on. It's an awesome feeling to know that you made it through and you are the better person for it. Oh, and I love your new design! So pretty and sweet!

  6. I am so happy you are facing this new chapter in your life with a positive outlook. Your new blog look is absolutely amazing! :)

  7. Lindsay! Don't. Ever. Stop! You are a great inspiration! Love your strength!
    Love you!!


  8. your strength and refusal to give up no matter what is a true inspiration to so many women. I really hate to see that things didn't end up the way you had hoped when you took those vows, but I and every other person who follows your blog knows that you will bounce back from this. Can't wait to see where the next chapter takes you!

    Much love,

  9. What a wonderful and honest reflection - thank you for sharing.

  10. Big hugs to you! I'm so very sorry! You're such a strong and inspiring person and I'm so thankful to have found your blog! Your words and optimism are always so beautiful.

    Also, your new header is absolutely stunning!

  11. Hang in there love! I'm glad things are looking up for you. Here's to the next chapter in your life!

    Love and hugs!

  12. Sorry to hear about all the sadness you've been through but so proud of you in this next chapter! <3

  13. I am so proud of you! This post is truly inspiring! I'm wishing you all the best Lindsay <3

  14. I'm really sorry to hear about all of this - it's never easy for anyone involved, and it's always different for each person but I'm so glad you're doing your best at finding a positive note in this!!
    I'm with you on that last bit about loving with all of your heart, but I've never managed to direct that at myself! It's a good goal to have, something I've been working on too!

    Best wishes <3

  15. Love, love, love your new blog design! Good luck with everything, you sound like you're on a good path to recovery. Congrats, lovely. Kx

  16. This is beautiful. You are beautiful! So proud of you! I know it's hard but you are full of grace & beauty. You should be so very proud of yourself! xo

  17. So happy to see this post from you, Lindsay. I've been thinking of you and hoping you are healing and doing well. I am happy for you and excited for this new chapter in your life! xo

  18. Hugs to you. You are an inspiration to many.
    T&P, and sending lots of creative positivity your way!!!!