the next chapter.

it's taken awhile to get here.  the point where you realize that one chapter of your life has ended just so the next chapter can begin.  as much as i resisted it, as much as i tried to make my reality something different...i realize now that the best is yet to come.

i have learned so much more about myself in the last 2 months than i ever thought i could...

i am far stronger than i gave myself credit for...this is something that i will always carry with me.  i am so lucky to have discovered this about myself during my young years because down the road, when life throws me another curveball i can look back at this time in my life and remember that i got through it...i made it.  i survived.

forgiveness really is what matters most.  learning to forgive is hard.  it forces you to dig deep and face all the things that make you want to curl up in a ball and give up.  it wasn't something that happened over night...it was a progression of time that i am so grateful came sooner than later.  the day i was able to find forgiveness was the day my head and heart thanked me endlessly.  my soul feels light again...my mind is becoming clear and the pieces of my heart are slowly mending back together.  of course, there will be tough days ahead, but knowing that i have found it in me to truly forgive makes those days few and far between.

i am a fighter. a true fighter...even when i didn't know what i was fighting for i continued to fight because it felt right.  unfortunately, life doesn't always give you the things you want.  as much as i wanted to save my marriage i quickly realized that that fight was lost and the person that i should really be fighting for is myself.

throughout my entire life i have always been the one that had so much love to give.  when i love...i love with all of my heart.  as i move forward to this next chapter i will stay strong, continue to forgive, always fight and take the time to love myself.  in the end that's what really matters most.